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Stagnation
That which stands in the way of reform
Of innovation
Of progress
I claim not that every movement will be productive
Or even that any given will be better than now
But does that mean that we should never break from the status quo?
Maintenance is baseline
If you are responsible for but fail at that
You are a disappointment
I however,
Will never be happy with just maintenance.
I want to move, to fix, to represent
How can you be in a position of responsibility,
not look to better that which you are responsible for -
And call yourself a Leader
I despise stagnation
And become frustrated by those who perpetuate it
But that will never make it leave
This will always be my enemy
Life goal -
Aid, Assist, and Cause
Organizational Motion
Academic Path -
Learning and Organizational Change & Philosophy
Damn - I am an advocate aren't I
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I'm really behind :(
Hey guys,
I really sorry, i'm really behind with keeping up with all your blogs - i'll catch up - I promise
I really sorry, i'm really behind with keeping up with all your blogs - i'll catch up - I promise
Friday, October 22, 2010
The book
A lot of my friends here are into creative writing and poetry and so a friend of mine bought a composition notebook and leaves it out with the purpose of everyone writing in it.
BTW this is awesome and everyone should do it... just saying.
Anyway, when I post "from the book" it means that it's something I wrote for the book first. I'm just putting it on the blog for you all and as an archive.
BTW this is awesome and everyone should do it... just saying.
Anyway, when I post "from the book" it means that it's something I wrote for the book first. I'm just putting it on the blog for you all and as an archive.
In the book #1
Ideas surge through the mind in
A wave of unstoppable force
Pulsing, moving -
Pulling you to Doubt
One you've never known -
One you just met -
One as curious
As open
His eyes shone with wonder -
Radiating from the speeding
Cogs of cognition -
Bends and bounces
Round that physical sanctum
Before pushing its way
Past the veil of Ideas
Into the minds of those nearby
And He cannot contain
His excitement
A wave of unstoppable force
Pulsing, moving -
Pulling you to Doubt
One you've never known -
One you just met -
One as curious
As open
His eyes shone with wonder -
Radiating from the speeding
Cogs of cognition -
Bends and bounces
Round that physical sanctum
Before pushing its way
Past the veil of Ideas
Into the minds of those nearby
And He cannot contain
His excitement
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Emotion
I'm a slight extrovert which means that I draw my energy from being with other people -
This is definitely true - I most certainly don't want to be alone at this moment
That being said, there is not a single person in my life I can think of - parents, new friends, old friends, sibling, mentors, god knows who else - that I can think of that I want to be around/talk to right now.
What I realized is that force myself not to fall subject to the fundamental attribution error and don't place blame on others. Though this is a great policy in general, it leaves me either with nowhere to point a finger, or pointing it at myself. Depression turns to the emotion of anger and self loathing. But, since there is no external attribution, all it leads to is confusion. A baseless emotion.
An emotion that cannot be understood, cannot be controlled.
And uncontrolled, unmonitorable, emotion is confusing
And frustrating
And is a weakness.
And I hate that I think that.
This is definitely true - I most certainly don't want to be alone at this moment
That being said, there is not a single person in my life I can think of - parents, new friends, old friends, sibling, mentors, god knows who else - that I can think of that I want to be around/talk to right now.
What I realized is that force myself not to fall subject to the fundamental attribution error and don't place blame on others. Though this is a great policy in general, it leaves me either with nowhere to point a finger, or pointing it at myself. Depression turns to the emotion of anger and self loathing. But, since there is no external attribution, all it leads to is confusion. A baseless emotion.
An emotion that cannot be understood, cannot be controlled.
And uncontrolled, unmonitorable, emotion is confusing
And frustrating
And is a weakness.
And I hate that I think that.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Things about you
It's been a long time since I've wrote to you
Or thought about you
Or been one with you.
It's been a long time since I've shared with you
And thought with you
And laughed with you.
It's been a long time since
My world has been thrown into
Such creative confusion
I live in an intellectual whirlwind -
Skipping from gust to gust
And never finding a branch
To hold on to
I don't even know if
I should be
Looking
Everyone's different
Everything's interesting
And
Nothing is easy
I like these people
I like this here
I miss the silence
Or thought about you
Or been one with you.
It's been a long time since I've shared with you
And thought with you
And laughed with you.
It's been a long time since
My world has been thrown into
Such creative confusion
I live in an intellectual whirlwind -
Skipping from gust to gust
And never finding a branch
To hold on to
I don't even know if
I should be
Looking
Everyone's different
Everything's interesting
And
Nothing is easy
I like these people
I like this here
I miss the silence
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Update
Ok so college is great - but i'll leave that for another post
In case I haven't told you yet I got a call-back for not a one of the seven a cappella groups I auditioned for on campus - *sigh*
On the other hand though, I'm surprised at the fact that the emotion I have at the moment is not one of anger, but rather sadness. I usually get angry at ignorance, hypocrisy or stupidity or from self-loathing. Since I was pleased by my own performance and all of the groups were unanimous in their rejection of me, there's kind of nothing to be angry about. I'm still in the fine and performing arts res college so I'm still surrounded by talented people. We'll see what becomes of that :)
Cheers,
Shadow's Friend
In case I haven't told you yet I got a call-back for not a one of the seven a cappella groups I auditioned for on campus - *sigh*
On the other hand though, I'm surprised at the fact that the emotion I have at the moment is not one of anger, but rather sadness. I usually get angry at ignorance, hypocrisy or stupidity or from self-loathing. Since I was pleased by my own performance and all of the groups were unanimous in their rejection of me, there's kind of nothing to be angry about. I'm still in the fine and performing arts res college so I'm still surrounded by talented people. We'll see what becomes of that :)
Cheers,
Shadow's Friend
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Leaving tomorrow
So I'm leaving with my dad tomorrow morning - catching a 7:00 flight.
My sister gave me a picture frame to put a picture of the four of us to take with me to college, but that involved having a picture of the four of us. So we were going to take one today (but it was rainy) so fail. We ended up taking like an hour to get a decent shot sitting on our couch at home (20min to figure out the right settings to use - 40 to get everyone to smile).
Say cheese :)
Seeyall,
Shadow's Friend
My sister gave me a picture frame to put a picture of the four of us to take with me to college, but that involved having a picture of the four of us. So we were going to take one today (but it was rainy) so fail. We ended up taking like an hour to get a decent shot sitting on our couch at home (20min to figure out the right settings to use - 40 to get everyone to smile).
Say cheese :)
Seeyall,
Shadow's Friend
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Update?
I haven't posted much in a while - and I apologize for that.
I had an amazing time working at camp my colleagues, mentors and employers were great. As if there was any way they wouldn't be.
Since then I've been spending a lot of time doing nothing. I've been packing. Everyone's gone :(
Oh! - I got a new camera - panasonic dmc-fz100
So i'll post some pictures if I take nice ones
I had an amazing time working at camp my colleagues, mentors and employers were great. As if there was any way they wouldn't be.
Since then I've been spending a lot of time doing nothing. I've been packing. Everyone's gone :(
Oh! - I got a new camera - panasonic dmc-fz100
So i'll post some pictures if I take nice ones
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sleep Paralysis
Hey all,
I wrote about having the experience of feeling paralyzed in a half-sleep state. I seemed to have been wrong however in calling it a form of lucid dream. I recently found that this is something that is relatively common - termed sleep paralysis. Here's a link if any of you are interested in what Wikipedia has to say about it.
Cheers,
Shadow's Friend
I wrote about having the experience of feeling paralyzed in a half-sleep state. I seemed to have been wrong however in calling it a form of lucid dream. I recently found that this is something that is relatively common - termed sleep paralysis. Here's a link if any of you are interested in what Wikipedia has to say about it.
Cheers,
Shadow's Friend
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Story Snippets #2:
Dust settles on the floor in carpets. Next to the couch stands the worn-out, diminutive, chest of doors like a testament to the owner's pack-rat-ish tendancies. There was a spiderweb hanging like a curtain from the bottom of the table, blocking the passage of the curious hand. The television was an old SONY, a big boxy thing that took up a fair amount of space on the wall-unit.
The family that lived there weren't as old as the place made it seem. They had a kid off to college, one starting high school. They had no time to clean. None of them did.
The family that lived there weren't as old as the place made it seem. They had a kid off to college, one starting high school. They had no time to clean. None of them did.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sup bro?
I grew to detest the 'bro.'
Grace à urbandictionary:
noun
An alpha male idiot. This is the derogatory sense of the word (common usage in the western US): white, 16-25 years old, inarticulate, belligerent, wife beaters, shitty music, talks about nothing but chicks and beer.
I am so sick of guys who think that it's going to get them somewhere to be complete asses around other people. Frankly it takes just as much effort if not less to be a decent human being.
Anyway,
I got so disheartened by the fact that the non bro (or bro equivalent) was so hard to come by that I cringed away from spending time with people that were supposed to be my friends.
So thank you to the people I am with right now. It is wonderful and enlightening to be around so many guys who don't see it as their life mission to be a jerk. It makes it easier to smile.
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P.S.
Here's an alternate definition of bro: (again thanks to urbandictionary)
noun
A version of a bra specifically designed for men
[rofl - gotta love urbandictionary]
P.P.S.
A more complete definition of bro: (is it even worth mentioning at this point)
Bros ruin everything they touch. They are deeply racist, yet vulture-ize black culture with attempts to be "down", while living as far from any ghetto as humanly possible. It's because they seek danger, or the illusion of it.
Bros have also brought the concept of homophobia to a new level. You see, they love play fighting, tackling their mates, and joke incessantly about each other's wieners. But they will claim that there is no connection whatsoever between their overuse of the term "f****", their intense desires for close physical kinship with their pals, and their own closeted Bromosexuality. "No homo" is a phase that is commonly heard when saying saying something that sounded gay to show that you aren't gay after all.
*Bro's also pride themselves in their "im such a dick!" attitude. It's kind of a way of setting themselvs apart from the rest of us who might actually have some respect for traffic laws, women, and the general public. *
[God I hate them]
Socal Trash
Grace à urbandictionary:
noun
An alpha male idiot. This is the derogatory sense of the word (common usage in the western US): white, 16-25 years old, inarticulate, belligerent, wife beaters, shitty music, talks about nothing but chicks and beer.
I am so sick of guys who think that it's going to get them somewhere to be complete asses around other people. Frankly it takes just as much effort if not less to be a decent human being.
Anyway,
I got so disheartened by the fact that the non bro (or bro equivalent) was so hard to come by that I cringed away from spending time with people that were supposed to be my friends.
So thank you to the people I am with right now. It is wonderful and enlightening to be around so many guys who don't see it as their life mission to be a jerk. It makes it easier to smile.
-----------
P.S.
Here's an alternate definition of bro: (again thanks to urbandictionary)
noun
A version of a bra specifically designed for men
[rofl - gotta love urbandictionary]
P.P.S.
A more complete definition of bro: (is it even worth mentioning at this point)
Bros ruin everything they touch. They are deeply racist, yet vulture-ize black culture with attempts to be "down", while living as far from any ghetto as humanly possible. It's because they seek danger, or the illusion of it.
Bros have also brought the concept of homophobia to a new level. You see, they love play fighting, tackling their mates, and joke incessantly about each other's wieners. But they will claim that there is no connection whatsoever between their overuse of the term "f****", their intense desires for close physical kinship with their pals, and their own closeted Bromosexuality. "No homo" is a phase that is commonly heard when saying saying something that sounded gay to show that you aren't gay after all.
*Bro's also pride themselves in their "im such a dick!" attitude. It's kind of a way of setting themselvs apart from the rest of us who might actually have some respect for traffic laws, women, and the general public. *
[God I hate them]
Socal Trash
Monday, July 19, 2010
A simulation argument against Suicide
This argument changes depending on the person, but the core is the same.
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Let's pretend for a moment that I am a computer simulation. Perhaps even, a projection of your mind, if we take the terminology of Inception.
In fact, as you have no proof otherwise, let's assume that we are all simulations. Everyone outside of yourself does not exist in the way you believe yourself to exist.
If this is the case, why should you care about us?
Why should you care what happens to us?
Why should you care what we think?
What we feel?
In your experience we (everyone other than you, the simulations) bleed when cut. We express pain. We cry. We laugh. We confide in you, and we confide in each other. We express sorrow at the loss of a loved one and joy at those moments of bliss.
We write, we sing, we embrace.
Even if we don't exist in the same way you do, to you, we might as well.
And thus a case against suicide,
Even if this world is not real, consider what the rest of us would feel.
We may not exist in the same way you do, but, if all you can trust is your experience, then from your experience, we do all feel.
Imagine the sorrow we'd all feel at your loss.
Imagine the pain you'd cause.
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Let's pretend for a moment that I am a computer simulation. Perhaps even, a projection of your mind, if we take the terminology of Inception.
In fact, as you have no proof otherwise, let's assume that we are all simulations. Everyone outside of yourself does not exist in the way you believe yourself to exist.
If this is the case, why should you care about us?
Why should you care what happens to us?
Why should you care what we think?
What we feel?
In your experience we (everyone other than you, the simulations) bleed when cut. We express pain. We cry. We laugh. We confide in you, and we confide in each other. We express sorrow at the loss of a loved one and joy at those moments of bliss.
We write, we sing, we embrace.
Even if we don't exist in the same way you do, to you, we might as well.
And thus a case against suicide,
Even if this world is not real, consider what the rest of us would feel.
We may not exist in the same way you do, but, if all you can trust is your experience, then from your experience, we do all feel.
Imagine the sorrow we'd all feel at your loss.
Imagine the pain you'd cause.
Inception (film) and a note on Reality
A comment about the review:
The movie was really quite good, I recommend it with the highest praise for anyone interested in things that are interesting
A comment inspired by the movie: (and other random stuff in my head)
This is our reality.
We may have others,
But, as we exist
As we live
We live here
There are escapes
There are ways deeper
But where we live
Where we all live
Is right here
Find your totem
Find your tether
Find your tether to reality
And if you need me,
I will be that for you.
The movie was really quite good, I recommend it with the highest praise for anyone interested in things that are interesting
A comment inspired by the movie: (and other random stuff in my head)
This is our reality.
We may have others,
But, as we exist
As we live
We live here
There are escapes
There are ways deeper
But where we live
Where we all live
Is right here
Find your totem
Find your tether
Find your tether to reality
And if you need me,
I will be that for you.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Worry
Can't life go on
Can't life go on without a problem?
A problem to solve
A something to fix
A someone to look after
To worry about
Can't life go on without worry?
Do we need concern to feel,
Alive?
Can we live without lines?
Without every waking moment
Consumed with worry?
Sometimes life is just ok
Nothings wrong
Does that happen?
Can't life go on without a problem?
A problem to solve
A something to fix
A someone to look after
To worry about
Can't life go on without worry?
Do we need concern to feel,
Alive?
Can we live without lines?
Without every waking moment
Consumed with worry?
Sometimes life is just ok
Nothings wrong
Does that happen?
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
Smile
Props to you if you can make me smile through your words or sentiments.
But only the highest compliments if you can make me smile with your voice.
I love you all :)
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Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
But only the highest compliments if you can make me smile with your voice.
I love you all :)
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Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
Love/Hate
If these past few days have taught me anything, it's that I love music. I love to sing, and I love harmony. I love being around other people who love the same.
I hate the fact that I couldn't bring myself to risk being the starving artist.
I envy you all for being able to make the choice I couldn't.
P.S.
Cc, I looked it up and I believe you were backwards with regards to envy and jealousy
I hate the fact that I couldn't bring myself to risk being the starving artist.
I envy you all for being able to make the choice I couldn't.
P.S.
Cc, I looked it up and I believe you were backwards with regards to envy and jealousy
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