Always here

For those who want to talk

For those who need an ear

Know that I am always there.

A phone call away

A text message

An IM

A facebook

A blog post

Lyrics; Simon and Garfunkel: Patterns

The night sets softly
With the hush of falling leaves,
Casting shivering shadows
On the houses through the trees,
And the light from a street lamp
Paints a pattern on my wall,
Like the pieces of a puzzle
Or a child's uneven scrawl.

Up a narrow flight of stairs
In a narrow little room,
As I lie upon my bed
In the early evening gloom.
Impaled on my wall
My eyes can dimly see
The pattern of my life
And the puzzle that is me.

From the moment of my birth
To the instant of my death,
There are patterns I must follow
Just as I must breathe each breath.
Like a rat in a maze
The path before me lies,
And the pattern never alters
Until the rat dies.

And the pattern still remains
On the wall where darkness fell,
And it's fitting that it should,
For in darkness I must dwell.
Like the color of my skin,
Or the day that I grow old,
My life is made of patterns
That can scarcely be controlled.

Mean what you say

Mean what you say you idiot!

If you don't know what you are saying
DON'T

You have no idea how offensive you can be by saying things you don't understand

There is a reason we don't box types

It is because for every rule there must be an exception

And you
YOU

Just...


GAH!

Note for a mental state

It is interesting to watch the progression of my mental state from stress and survival to peace to anger and frustration. I wonder if that means that the anger was always there and I was just to preoccupied to notice. If there is anyone therefore that I have hurt because of this I apologizes.

Mind over Matter

The mind is the most powerful force at your control

All it takes
All it takes to enact a change
Is to change what you think

All behavior is at your control
Mind controls action

If there is something you dislike about yourself
All it takes is a choice
All it takes is a mental commitment

Mind over matter

Restraint

The more power you have the harder it is to contain


If restraint is the ability to hold back
Then restraint is a measure of pent up anger


What is the release?
Does it tear you apart?


What if you are too good at it.

Power

Power is in interaction
In a voice
In a look

Power is in influence
In friends
In words

Power is in the ability to hurt
In truth
In potential

Anger

You have never seen me angry

You have seen me annoyed
You have seen me pissed off
You have seen me disappointed
You have seen me frustrated

But you have never seen me angry

I become cold

As steel


Every word is calculated
Every word drips venom

My speech bites
My gaze will tear you to shreds

You want not hear me



But I guarantee you

Only the fool crosses me twice

Midwife to Madness

Swirling stereotypes lead to predictable recursion

Misunderstanding is the root of all misery

I am the midwife and the mediator
I am the friend and the critic
I am the shape in the darkness
I am the shadow of your sorrow
The lighting rod for your emotion

I will ground you

Song Writing

Hey everyone,

I've decided to do a bit of song writing however I seem to be too lazy to come up with my own lyrics... i'll come around eventually...

Anyway, if you have anything you'd like me to set to music I'd love to give it a try
For those of you who know my school email please use that. Otherwise feel free to comment on this post with your lyrics.

Cheers :)

Get out of my face you useless idiot

"Get out of my face you useless idiot"

Is that what you think I think of you?

If you start a conversation by specifically asking for my attention
My concentration

When you proceed to ask the like same question you asked the time before

If my answer still hasn't changed

Perhaps my response may seem a little annoyed the next time


Why do you ask to do something unnecessary?

Does it warrant a lecture every time you don't make sense
Every time I can't understand?

If the failing is yours
And it is blamed on me

Don't expect me to be gracious in response.

So if my tone says
"Get out of my face you useless idiot"

Maybe, below the mask of common conduct,
I mean it?

All it takes is a hug

I should first point out that this is post #50 :)

All it takes is a hug.

Just a hug.

I know we've never talked. I know we know nothing about each other.
I know we met only how long ago.

But we have hugged.

I know that if I want to,
You'll be there for me
And I'll be there for you

All it takes is a hug
And you open the potential for connection